This is my destiny

2010-07-18T10:10:00.000-07:00

I guess , the past of my life repeats again..

I seriously don't know why those same things

that i don't wish that it happened again ,

happened to me once again. I wonder if the

problem lies on me ?? But hell no. I didn't do

a single thing , did not say a single thing .

So, what have i done seriously????????????

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! I really don't

know what to do already.. Wish someone could

guide me.. But , just to let you know, I am who

i used to be. I have never changed at all. I am

the one you once saw.

Those hopes i put in , are all gone. Things that

I need to say , are said , except for one thing ,

something that i wish i could tell..But I think

that is impossible..

Its never easy to be a good guy. No matter how

much you have done or said, nobody will give

a damn.But no matter what, life still goes on.

I still need to breathe , shit, eat and sleep.

I will still be me.

2010-06-25T10:13:00.000-07:00

I am writing this post for my clique .

We guys are so fortunate to know

you all. Looking back in the past,

from the 1st day we started to slack,

and until now , we have gone through

alot . We have gone through problems

and also, we had enjoyed ourselves in

the past months. Yea, time passes fast.

Its been 4 months since we knew each

other . Hahas we will have more fun

times going out together in the coming

days :) . Also , let me promise your that,

if your have any problems , we will try

our best to help.

Holidays are ending soon :( . Gotta play like mad

for the remaining few days !!!!!

Ton ,ton, ton , go outttttttttttt everyday :D.

Hahas sot le me. LOL .

People, must make use of this few

days wisely !

2010-06-01T07:28:00.000-07:00

I may look happy and sot everyday.

But I am actually not. There are so

many things I wish to say , but i cant.

Hais. People I knew in the past were

so selfish , so heartless. I regreted that

i did not heed the advice of someone ,

someone whom i dont trusted in the

past.Now I finally understand what ,

don't 100% trust anybody , even those

who are close to you means..

I have seen alot in the past

few years . I shall treat those as my

lessons in my life. I feel sad for my

friends who trusted so much on that

person and in the end , got backstabbed.

I am afraid of nothing , but only human.

Who knows , someday while you are

walking on the street and suddenly,

someone stab you on your back and

you died ?. Things are so unpredictable.

We are humans , we will die one day.

Its just that we dont know when.

I really don't understand why those

people rather live their life in such

a complicated way then normally?

Why do they want to harm those people

around them? Even their best friends

or relative? It is because of fun and

excitement? So really, my friends ,

you all have to learn how to see people.

Don't ever judge people by their looks.

Handsome/ pretty so what? Don't be

too naive. What matter most is their

heart. Maybe some of you may not

understand what I am talking/ crapping

about , but this is my advice. You will

understand what I may be talking . Someday.

Yea and if you all want to laugh at me ,

i don't mind. Cause I am that pathetic enough.

Never been in love before , got backstabbed ,

got toyed before , no relatives that i can trust,

except my family. I have nothing much left.

Only a bunch of friends which i put alot of

hope in them. Hoping that they would be better

than people that I knew before. I just want to

live my life happily. I want to grow up and be

able to care for people around me. I want to be

someone useful ..

So my friends , dont ever be sad unless you are

more pathetic than me. Which i dont think your

are. Live your life happily when you can, cherish

every happy memories that you had .

Late update.

2010-05-31T10:09:00.001-07:00

Saturday :

Happy b'day Celene.

Celebrated Celene's bday .

Morning all come my house

bake cake for her as a surprise.

Hahas woke up dam early for that.

After that , went town. And went to

a museum to walk and look around.

Time passes fast. After that, went

swensens eat .

Jason's noob burger =X . Hahas

Hahas my half spring chicken :) .

Sunday.

Stayed at home maple ><

Sian lohssssxxxxxxxxxx.

Wasted Sunday.

Monday.

Woke up at 6.30 :(.

Got school. Went school.

Till 4 + . Sianxxzzzzxxx

Jus nice walk outside school

saw a merz cab . Lol. Lazy take

bus then took the cab home.

I am not rich. Merz cab same as normal

cab thats why i took :D .

Lmaos. Went home changed and

went down Timah Mambo find

taoeh and ginas :D . Pooled,

ate pizza hut. Although i

dun like, i ate a ice cream

for dinner. Hahas take it

as cut fat barhs. :D

As long as taoeh they all

happy jiu can lehs . No problem .

Hahas. After that went home liao.

Shall end here. tired. wan sleep.

Nites . N ty looking at me talk cock.

2010-05-26T09:23:00.001-07:00

Did nothing much today.

Went to timah alone. Sang k.

After that went home. Hais..

See everyone like moodless .

I am so afraid i would lose my

last and only important thing

in my life....

2010-05-25T04:27:00.001-07:00

Finally had some peace this two days.

Not gonna care anymore.

Not gonna to think anymore.

Remade the blog. Hahas.

Not bad rite. lols.

gonna go for dinner.

later the write..

2010-05-23T09:16:00.000-07:00

Fuck my life.

Fuck my relatives.

Fuck those hongsters.

Really really fucked up...!

Tired of everything.

2010-05-18T07:30:00.000-07:00

Miss the past.

Miss the times spent with..

Miss what i had always.

been doing in the past.

Miss sec school life.

Miss those times without worries.

Although those are past ,

but i will not forget any

single thing i have done .

Good memories are meant

to be kept in my mind.

But now. I am somehow stucked

in nowhere. Don't know which

way to go, and what to do already.

My life everyday is just so plain.

So dam jealous of those who can

just live their life simply and happily...

2010-05-06T07:39:00.000-07:00

Tired. So much things happen each day.

Hais.. I am trying my best to help already.

Hope one day, things would be better.Hahas.

I dont need a reward or something. What I

want is to see my friend live their life happily.

Hahas , and yeah, I am contented with what

I have now, and a few important friends in

my life . Without them , I will seriously be

very lonely. Today got nothing much to write.

Hahas i should continue tomorrow bah .

2010-04-26T10:24:00.000-07:00

Today is my b'day . LOL went to school as usual. So guai rite?

Hehes. After school, went home changed and then met

raymond, ting and von .We went to panjang mac eat till like crazy><

we ordered almost every meal lmaos. I eat till not enuff then go

buy 20 piece nugget. I ate 10 pieces, then the rest all very full

liao. So i bring home .LOL. slacked till 12+++ went home.

Hahas its been 4 mths since i met them and they still rmb

my bday. So gan dong worh. Hahas. Thnx for the day :D.

My friend.

2010-04-25T09:41:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 12 + . Went lot 1 arcade till 4+.

Met jason and dao bao dinner. Then met

up taoeh and ginas to go ah hao house slack.

Watch star awards till 8+ lmaos. So lame uh.

Lol. After that, went 300+ there with ah hao

to fetch he sis and then he went home with her

sis. Left tao eh n ginas , longan , bb and yp. Then

we took bus 975 1big round lohs. LOL passed by

lim chu kang and then around it , back to cck .

After that , all went home lohs. Lazy type le.

I want to sleep. Tmr will be a busy day barhs.

Lmaos. :D . Also , really thanks for all the

wishes .

2010-04-24T12:51:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 10 am this morning, felt super bored...

Took a bath and decided to cook my lunch, as there

is nobody at home >< . Went fairprice and bought

2 packet of frozen spicy bbq wings, noodles n drinks.

Went home , cook the noodles and then oven-ed

half packet of the wings. hahas , sat infront of the

com, ate while watching Pandaman . LoL. then

suddenly jason say he and bb going my house

meet me . Lmaos ,by then, i kno what they're

up to le. hahas but i play along :D . After that,

i slept till 4 then just nice, i heard my neighbour dog

barking, then i kno that some 1 is outside my door.

Cool uh , dunnid door bell lmaos :X . Went to

open the door , i saw boon boon standing there

alone. Then after that i jitao run into the room ,

to wear my shirt, but then , too late liao , all

suddenly came in with the cake loh. then i

was like abit stun and paisei cos im topless

LOL , grabbed a blanket and cover myself

but they saw my sexy body LMAOS.

shy :( .hahas okays enuff of the nonsenese.

Sang song and then cut the cake . They told

me to make three wish , and i made.

1st , wish everybody will live their life happily

and healthily , 2nd, hair faster grow back :(.

THIRD, I DUN WAN TELL YOU :D.

Secret :X .

Hahs, after eating cake and those wings i bought

earlier , all slacked at my house. LOL all was like so high ,

shouting here and there , then they guys was like having

gay sex in the room , was riding each other . OMG .

With clothes on , dun worry peeps . This is not RA. Hahas.

Blasted music and played around like crazy. Dunno my

neighbour will complain anot , but I Don't Care , eh eh eh eh eh~

LOLs. I abit high already. Slacked till 8+ then went for dinner

@teck whye macdonals .We daobao and went ome random

block downstairs to eat. Sat one big circle and slack again .

Hahas till aroud 12 + , 1 police car came by and told us

to change place or something, cos got ppl complain.

but nvr tio screen . Saved the trouble. Haha then we

went to CC there de basketball court to slack again . Until

215 , saw 1 police car again , ah hao suggest we ran , cos dam

alot ppl. But then in the end , we went back to let them screen

but heng they nvr screen , only talk to us. LOL the most funny

thing is the CID talk till halfway , i fart veri loud. LMAOSSSSS.

I did that on purpose one . Hahas. After that , sent Tao eh

and ginas home , then finally , ah hao , longan , apple, bb , and

we went home .Thats all :D.

Hahas and i would like to thank you all forrrrr helping me

celebrate uhs. Tot i was gonna celebrate this year bday

at home alone . LOL. Thank you , so touched.

I go cry already :D

Nites , all.

Takecares.

Will nvr forget today !.

how i wish.

2010-04-23T08:18:00.000-07:00

Bored larhsxxsxs... :( today rain till 8++

then floor all wet wet cnt slack at all. sian.

Lols. woke up as usual, went to sch, 10+ go

home. Bathed and met ah hao ,jason, and

boon boon at lot 1. Went ntuc buy things to cook

spagetthii . After tat, went to ah hao's

house below to meet TAO EH and Ginas. LOL.

Then went up ah hao house cook , slack ,play,

eat loh. Hahas until 5+ , all went home.

Then me jason , boon boon and ah hao

went back Lot 1 slack , play arcade lohs.

Super super bo liao.. Dunno why .

Aftet that yp and sebes met us, slacked again.

10 + went home loh.. Seriously... this weekend like

dam boring loh :( wish would waste this weekend

doing nothing and staying at home ... Dun wan

bored till die .

Hais .

The end.

2010-04-21T09:25:00.000-07:00

Hmms.. alot misunderstanding happen

today sia. Hais.. i should'nt be there too.

My fault ,my bad. Idk wad to say. A

sorry would at least help abit. :(

2010-04-20T08:42:00.000-07:00

Boing day today.Did nothing much.

Woke up at 11+ .went to sch at 12+

Boring lessons. End at 4+. Then went

home bath and used com. 6+ meet

longan ,longan gf and burger king.

Lmaos. Then went to lot 1 find

taoeh they all. Slack awhile, eat abit,

play 2,3 round tune then after that

all balek kampong.. Lols.. Like a sian.

Hais. nt feeling too well also, headache.

Wanna sleep early today.

Nothing much i can do.. but to watch and help.

2010-04-19T08:38:00.000-07:00

Not feeling well today, went to see

doctor. Then the doc said my bp abit

high, 160. omg... he want me to go

check up, but I dun wan. Wtf loh..

Dunno whats happening to me larh.

Mayb I am too exhausted already..
Hais..Thinking so much till my head

wanna burst already.. Maybe I should

really have a good sleep to let my body

rest already. Hais.. SO , people, health

is much more important than anything

kays. Must really take good care of ourselves.

I go sleep already. Good nights and you all

have some good rest too .

Whats happening to me???.

2010-04-18T08:44:00.000-07:00

Did nothing much today.

Woke up , went for lunch

then came back play com

and watch show till now..

But alot things happened

during the afternoon.Hais

idk how to say.. Hmms..

But i really really dont

want your to give up..

Dun ever be like me. I am

such a failure. I have nothing

much left, only you all.

So i do not want to see

you all sad and i am trying

my best to do whatever i can.

Promise me, don't give up.

2010-04-17T21:18:00.000-07:00

So fast one week pass already .

Slacked at different place everyday.

Aiyo.. today mind blank blank one.

Dunno what to write.. But , most

du lan de is i buy 4d , 0312 and

4549 , it opened 0316 and 4548.

!@#$%^&*()_+!!!!!!!!!Fuxxxxxk

:( suay. lmaos if not win $375 liao.

Nevermind. not mine is not mine.

Hahas. And lastly, i must go play

beatup already. Lol laoniang won

me beatup. Omgs. i am so noob :(

Nid train . Rawr~!

2010-04-14T08:18:00.000-07:00

Hmms 3rd day of school. Lol. bored as usual.

Alot free time to relax and play facebook.Hahas

Sian .. hope june faster come :( . Time really pass

very fast, its been around 6mths since i got my

results. no more holiday le .sad . no more long

hair. no more slack life. hais. Stupid la me, go cut

my hair until bangs. LOL look like _____ . ugly.

hahas . dun care la. i happy can already LMAOS.

Alrights..got some advice of the day :D

No matter what happen , we must live our

life happily, do not regret what you may

have done in the past and do not hesitate

to do anything that you feel like . Nobody

can control you, except yourself. Follow

your heart. Find the right feeling .

Lastly, i have to say , sorry.

I was wrong.

2010-04-12T09:06:00.000-07:00

Walaos.. holiday over.go sch so bored.

but then nvr go school also bored.

sian sian sian.. Lols... cannot ton on

week days already luh :( .. Not bad

luhs , first day of school, saw alot

colour hair sia. got , white, got red,

golden, purple. Lmaos. hais.. dunno

what to write leis.. everyday is just

like the same.. nothing much to do,

nothing much to care, but alot things

to think. Hope i get sick soon already.

1 year nvr get mc liao . hahas. crazy

me. Cos , i am just that freaking bored,

nobody to talk to . Shag lols. Alamak..

say so much , think your wont understand

also. hahas. nevermind, jus let it be.

x3lonely.

2010-04-10T23:13:00.000-07:00

This few days was very tiring.. so did nt have the time to blog.
Last friday was bk's birthday and we decided to surprise him
by making a cake for him. Lols. On that day , longan and apple
came my house first. lols then after that met taoeh and her ginas.
Hahas. slack , eat at my my room for awhile and then started
making the cake . Spent bout 1 hour plus to do the cake loh..
At first , tot was okay ,but then in the end bake finish like stone .
Lmaos .Bo bian. no time alr. decorated it. after that, changed
and met everyone at timah. Alot ppl was there. Celebrated for bk
and then we sang k , i sing until the glass nearly break. LOL .
After that , we all, bout 13 ppl went to cck 430+ there to slack and
we talked ghost stories . After that , all hear until dun dare go home.
Lmaos again. But in the end, all still went home luhs. after that, onli
left me cx , apple and bk , we went cx house to ton loh.. All sleep till
like pig, air con cold dao~~ slept for 3 hours and i woke up to play ,
leaving those 3 pigs to snore until so song. LOL . Around , 3 pm , we
went home . After that, bout 7 , we met at timah again, for huiwen
birthday.. zzz super shag and tired luhs , 2 days sleep 3 hours nia.
Bo bian.. went there , showed face and then we go cck slack again
lohs. Rch there, boon kai said he saw 1 guy , but actually is val , Lmao.
Boon kai said she look like a guy from far. Lmao 3rd time =X. Then
val was angry like @#$%^&* fierce . Hahas. Epic. Waited at kk's house
below for taoeh to wrap her toe . Aiyo , careful nxt time. After that, slack
again and talked cock, then went home around 12++. bk, longan and apple
came my house to ton . Watched rec 1 and rec2 . LOls. quite nice .
Around 6+ , we all sleept. Apple sleeping position most nice 1 .Lmaos 4th time.
hahas. write till here. lazy type.

2010-04-05T06:03:00.000-07:00

Thank you , buddy.

so glad that you stop cutting your hand ,

but dun go hit the wall larhs..

you wan hit you hit me la.

. i am as good as dead already..

hais.. i dk wad to write already...

i cnt stop thinking .. i cnt stop drinking..

. too bad i dun smoke. Sorry jason, wenkai.. i have

let your down.. i drink again...

i dunno y im like that nowadays. i cant control myself le..

But i will try my best to... Sorry for those stupid things

i said just now.

But i must say, no girl nevermind, no brothers i will die.

2010-03-24T09:18:00.000-07:00

Hahs. thanks Jason for your words
If u're not there for me, i think by
then, i would have done stupid stuffs.
Weird uh.. last few days it was you who
is emo-ing , then today my turn sia.
LMAOS. hahas really thanks la. sorry
for saying those _____things. Miss your
tummy :D ,mr pooh bear. Thnx boon boon
for your support too :D .

Hais... how i wish
that i could personally tell you that i am
always here for you. I dont have the chance
to talk to you.. I am also afraid that i might
disturb till you and your daily life. So, what
i can do now is.. 24/7 thinking and hoping
that you could live your life happily and
without any problems . If any problems,
or anyone bully you , really really must
tell me . I confirm will help with no regrets.
Because , your the only reason for me
to live for . Nothing means much more
to me , but only you. Hope you would
understand it one day. I will keep waiting
until the day i...

2010-03-21T10:17:00.000-07:00

Dear bro, i know that a lot things have
happened to you recently. Take some
time to chill and stop thinking that you
cannot do it. Once u have started to take
a step into something, continue it whole
heartedly ,continue it till the very end.
Because , you have already tried to gave
in everything for it. You can't just simply
give up. Believe in your choice that you
have made. I know that you wan to live
your life normally like others. You want
to have a girl for you to care for and care
for you. You want to have friends to laugh
together , sad together. I know this because,
i am the same as you...
Seriously, love is so unpredictable and loving
someone is really hard. There is no such thing
as saying a simple i love you. That is not love.
If you love someone, you will do anything
beyond your limits . But some rather choose
people who don't show them what is true
love. But i believe one day, they would
understand what we , this kind of people are
talking about and what love is all about.
So , bro, lets continue. Do not give up.
No matter how hard, or how long,
we shall wait for it.
Believe in yourself.

2010-03-20T23:59:00.000-07:00

Had so much to say to you.
But i do not know if i have the
chance to say it to you.. I am so
sorry that i suddenly appeared
in your life. I do not know if it
affects till your daily life a not.
But i can confirm that , i wont
disturb until you. I'll just be by
your side. Always ready to help
you , always be here for you.
Yes, i know that i cannot be so
selfish, decision is yours and you
will have to make it someday.
Just follow your heart ,but please
don't take the wrong path, one step
wrong, and your life would be totally
changed. I don't want to see you
living in that way.All i want see you
live your life happily, cherish every
moment you had with your family,
your best friends . For me , i will
cherish every second that i can be
with you. I am living my life with no
regrets . No matter what, i will be here
waiting for you. Always.

emo.

2010-03-16T09:44:00.000-07:00

Life is just so unpredictable..
You wont know wad will happen
in the next minute of your life.
Maybe this minute, you are still
living in this world , and maybe
then next minute , you're already
gone from this world?

So, we must live our lives to the
fullest. Cherish everything around
you. If you truly love someone, just
love him/her till the very last min.

*I am waiting for someone.
Waiting for eternity.
Please tell me that
love doesn't go alone.

I have forgotten my past.